Another Way To Breathe

Spoilers, obv.

And we collapse forward on the keyboard and twitch a while. This has been nightmarishly hard. I suspect the last arc will be hard (as nothing in WicDiv is easy) but the things we were juggling here were something else.

Before we dive in, some top-level thinking. The advantage of the way WicDiv is constructed is that we know what we’re doing. A friend was just rereading the first arc, and noted how certain elements and approaches simply changed as the tone of the book solidified – while also noting that every direction we did take was there from the off. We knew the What We Were Doing but not always the specific How.

(Not least, as I was a hot mess in 2014. I’m amazed the WicDiv scripts weren’t just bahsjasjfaglagsfk.)

But the problem with knowing the direction of the book is you’re tied to ideas you may wish you hadn’t put in play. Because a five year book is enough time to change significantly in what you consider a good idea or not – and even if you still think it’s a good idea in the abstract, it doesn’t mean it’s an idea you would necessarily want to do any more.

At this point, there’s various things flying around. Firstly, Laura has rejected her godhood. That’s great. That’s clearly the arc of the book. Secondly, Ananke is running her own eternal scheme with its eternal rules. I don’t think it’s a spoiler to say that Ananke (and I’m using “Ananke” for “Ananke and Minerva” here) is significantly deceiving people on some key matters, and using the holes in their knowledge to her advantage. At this point in the story the same thing happens to her. We see that her own perception is also incomplete.

So – what’s the thing she’s missing?

I fell upon Maiden/Mother/Crone as a structure to create a relationship between Ananke/Persephone/Minerva. What action would Ananke buy?

It has to be archetypal and mythic. Cheaty postmodernism doesn’t work. Myth is brutal and basic and ugly and wrong.

So – if the Mother archetype has a child, Ananke’s doomed forever. It breaks the little eternal circle and Ananke thinks herself trapped in that sensory void forever.

There’s nothing in the above specifically and individually which worries me too much. It’s how they intersect with the rest of the plot, and how we can chart a line between them all without saying anything we don’t want to say, or without causing undue emotional distress in a way we’re uncomfortable with.

We end up with our solution, which is merely our best solution, which means it’s far from perfect. We do as much as we can, and try and touch on stuff as gently as we can to avoid any fair misreading of the story. Even so, there’s resonances in there I dislike.

There’s a sentence that is said all the time in writing room situations: “This is the bad version.” It’s said when people are brainstorming, and asking the audience to know this isn’t good, but they are good enough writers to make it better – it’s just a structure of the sort of things that the narrative could delineate.

It’s easy to imagine The Bad Version of this plot. Laura finding out she has to have a kid to save the world! Baal and Baphomet fighting over who’s the father! An issue cliffhanger where you think Laura’s own choice has doomed the world! I shudder. Like, someone with a different aesthetic to me would have done all of the above.

Instead, what we try to do is what we have to do to make the story work, and do it in the safest way possible. It’s the guiding aesthetic of most of this issue, in terms of separating the two key threads – namely not confusing Laura’s choice to have an abortion and Laura’s choice to reject godhood.

But still – I spent four years trying to think of something that Ananke would buy, based on our implicit story, which wasn’t this, and failed. I’d rather not have gone this way. I’m happy with the issue, but it was a heartbreaking amount of work as I take all of this intensely seriously.

So, to return to the opening, the problem with being as structured as WicDiv is means that you are tied to decisions you made years ago, without which the story simply breaks.

DIE (aka Project Spangly New Thing) rejects this kind of plotting. It’s just as messy emotionally as WicDiv (hell, even more so) but leaves the characters a lot more narrative freedom. I’d have done it anyway (because I hate to repeat myself) but the experience on arcs like this certainly feeds into it.

Anyway – I’ll be talking some specifics in this as we go through, as I suspect it may be useful for people thinking about the impact of choices.

Jamie’s Cover: Ananke in her cavewoman chic. That means 2 “persephone”, 2 “minerva” and 2 “Ananke” covers for this arc. The symmetry seems fun.

Phil Jimenez’s Cover: I first saw Phil’s work in his pop-thrill issues of The Invisibles, an obviously influential work on yours truly. We worked together on Angela: Asgard’s Assassin together, which was a thrill, and this glam-metal take on her. He’s also very lovely. As such, Minerva in full-on catwalk mode is a great take. I love these kind of maximalist high-thrill ones. And LIZ’s ‘When I rule the world’ has just come on my WicDiv shuffle at this point, which seems appropriate for Minerva stomping down a lightning-catwalk. Also, Dee Cunniffe (who has flatted nearly all of WicDiv) provides colours. Nice work, Dee.

Page 1-2

Black spaces. Like the opening of the arc – C’s idea, I believe. Also, ensuring we get our page turns right. We dropped the recap for once. Normally we’d drop it in the mid-point of the issue instead of the first interstitial, but it would have broken the space.

Obviously mirroring the start of this arc.

The first obvious bit of delineation: this is ten days after the end of last issue. Laura stopped being Persephone 10 days ago. As such, anything that happens now is not connected to that.

The biggest reading we wanted to avoid: “Laura’s abortion is the ritual by which she rejects and escapes the Persephone-Mother archetype”. Especially if people, either pro or anti choice, could make an argument we’re saying we’re saying the act is human sacrifice – a reading which seems especially possible in a story that already has human sacrifice in it.

Page 3-4-5-6

Reestablishing what folks have been up to in the gap – in short, bits and pieces, bits of information the characters should exchange, etc.

The Cass/Woden dialogue is stuff I’d have liked to get into issue 33, but was cut due to space and focus. It was Mimir’s scene, and as he’s been silent for the whole book, he gets to speak. The “He stole my life/I stole his” was all that was required. This is detail. Interesting detail, but detail. And, yes, loaded.

There’s a lot of “starting other stuff” in this sequence – clearly the “ritual” is going to be important next arc.

I love what Jamie is doing quietly with Mimir and the boxes at the back of the room on page 4. Like, I wonder what’s in each of those boxes, right? There’s some horrible pure objectification here. Like, Pokémon. Got to catch them all.

You can tell that Woden is more chill with Minerva, right?

It was originally written with Minerva noting that mind-controlled-sex-is-rape at the end of page 4. That felt frankly aggressive, as if we were using it as a punchline. Instead, we soften it, and move it mid-panel, which changes the feeling around it, hopefully.

On page 6, I really like the “Hmm. You’re learning.” It still makes me laugh.

Making the gun’s controls REALLY VISUALLY OBVIOUS is not exactly subtle, but 100% needed to make sure the scene make sense.

Page 7-8-9

With a month gap between issues, it’s possible that the reader may not have noticed that we’ve changed the issue structure from the rest of this arc. It’s not “past stuff then present stuff” like the others. It’s at least one reason why we didn’t give a preview – that and that the first pages of the issue are entirely non-characteristic in terms of where the issue goes.

Anyway – first page is a pure repeat from issue 34, so a free page. This issue is a little longer than normal, due to normal cheats. It’s actually 20 new pages long… plus one new panel.

Page 8 is very peak Jamie, plus Matt, for a certain mode. I never get bored of seeing what they do with blood together. Ananke’s expression in panel 4 is just particularly well chosen. This isn’t how Minerva feels last issue – that’s after thousands of years of dwelling on it. This is first exposure. You don’t go straight to AGRGRHRHRHRHH.

And back to the still angle on the third panel. Like, the static nature of these seems important in terms of mood.

I really hope Ananke isn’t licking that knife.

Page 10

I spent the best part of a day trying to work out what to name this interstitial, after naming it a few things previously. That we end up with a very limited Bowie nod says everything. Anything else seemed to create resonances we were trying to avoid. Once more, the aim is to separate the two decisions from Laura as much as possible.

Page 11

I know drawing London kills Jamie, but I’ll miss seeing stuff like this monthly when it’s gone.

We don’t know Laura’s walked out of a clinic for a few pages, but it was important to just give her space here.

Researching locations in London, in terms of placing the events, the timing, what would be available, and Laura’s condition after an abortion and trying to find a way to be sensitive to all of that as a writer. Ideally, I was looking for an option around Highbury & Islington, as I always prefer to reuse settings. In practise, this was best.

Page 12

I basically described Beth’s crew as Valkyrie-plusses. As in, the mini-bosses in a videogame. Elite models for a basic troop type.

Toni pushes to the front, as he’s always been the most talkative of the Other Two. Writing this I realised who he is here – he’s basically “Imagine Marvel Boy, if Marvel Boy was a total idiotic dipshit.”

(Instead of the “mostly idiotic dipshit” he was in YA. Love you, Noh-Varr! KISSY FACE.)

I believe Jamie laughed at this a fair bit.

Page 13-14

I considered various captions for Laura here, but no matter what they did, they blurred the line between her abortion and her abandoned godhood. As such, the relative silence was considered more effective.

13-14-15-16

A lot is packed into this space. In an ideal world, I’d like another page for it, to extend Beth’s choice to shoot or not, but it’s all there.

Key delineations here: obvious restatement of the 10 days since she’s been a god, to ensure it’s clear. “Panel 3”; Beth never knowing (nor caring) where Laura has just been; Robin actually being human; Laura’s privacy being respected; the “I’ve got more imminent problems” to separate her being shot from this; most importantly, Laura never knowing that this decision was important to Minerva, and never letting Minerva’s mistaken beliefs impact her decision. Laura’ abortion is her choice and doesn’t need a bunch of mythic stuff attached to it for her.

The “shame” line resonates with another, more optimistic, line on the first page of Young Avengers. This speaks to the books, and the choices and the attached psychology.

Page 17

Oddly, the “no cameras in the bathroom” information we’ve set up allows this scene. Minerva isn’t someone who would vocalise much if someone could have hear. You can imagine her looking in each booth to see if someone’s around. I did consider moving to captions for a page, but Minerva getting captions for this one event seemed aesthetically off.

Page 18

Self-evident interstitial, and so long a bit of text I can hear designers wincing.

Page 19-20

Earliest scene so far in WicDiv. I did consider having it set after the murder, with the grandson coming back to hear her last words, but the “alive-dead-alive-dead-alive-dead” was getting a bit silly. A quietly magical breakfast conversation seemed the way to go.

I think the bleakest and darkly funniest thing in the issue is the “Eventually, we’ll learn. It may take a thousand years, but someone will figure it out.” Oh, you total optimist, you.

I do like the mood of the colouring for this.

Okay – the key structural bit for safety-proofing this plot? The absolute minimisation of the gap between discovering the fourth rule, discovering Laura has had an abortion and then discovering that the fourth rule is just a lie. The longer it hangs, the more it is letting people live with an idea we find reprehensible. The thing I knew when starting this arc is all of this had to happen inside the same issue – the problem there being, that it also had to be foreshadowed enough to not come out of nowhere. And if you foreshadow too heavily, it’s as same as saying “this is where it’s going”.

Anyway – that wrapped up, we move towards the end…

Page 21-22-23-24-25

The continuation of last issue’s end. Laura and her captions.

Some perfect McKelvie expressions, and some key beats. Like, this also adds shade to last issue – I forget if I mentioned that one of the key beats of the series (Laura rejecting her godhood) being dramatised by her swapping a SIM card seems absolutely key to where we are.

Two key expressions – the glance to camera with “I’m not a god” and “So what? So do you.” I could marry Jamie for these.

Matt working the blacks and the ochres here is fascinating.

Thought experiment: originally the layout on page 21 had two captions in panel 3 and two in panel 4. I moved the first from panel 4 to panel 3. Why? A single caption always has more weight in a given space. Having two in each was effectively giving no extra weight to any individual caption. Instead, three in one makes that the conversational beat and the one over the spiral-staircase means the latter just hangs there.

(In short: less dialogue/caption in any space makes the line more important. SPACE=MEANING is what I’ve been saying all along, usually with panel size. As in, “bigger panels read as more important.” But the same sort of thinking applies to lettering in terms of the space it is allowed to “control.”)

End of page 21 – a final restating of the two events being separate. Laura choosing to have an abortion is something she decided when starting to put her life back together. It’s not a cause of her stopping being a god – if anything, it’s something that’s resulted from her new state of mind.

Lots in terms of mode in 22, but I love how Jamie has handled the nudity in the second panel. As in, she’s a girl changing for bed, but she’s never presented as something to be objectified, to looked at. Laura is always someone we’re meant to be. We are meant to inhabit her, and her us.

The panel at the start of 23 is the extra panel we squeezed in. One panel for this amount of extra material, leading to the better reveal seemed a good choice.

Did I mention I lost a line I really liked last issue? The “At long last, I know what I’m not” was originally “I know what I am/and I know what I’m not.” Which is pretty and elegant, but also confusing with this ending – the “what I am” is “not a god” and what I’m not” is “a god”. Prettiness only goes so far, especially as it’s not as if Laura’s going to stop and explain that.

Lots of key bits of dialogue in these pages, obviously. “I distrust anyone who tells me who I am. Especially if I agree” and all that.

Obviously in storytelling choices, this is reprising, in an inverted way, the end of The Faust Act. Instead of a flash of light, fading into darkness, darkness emerging from light. Also, really strong choice of expression in that final panel.

26

Referencing ‘Dancing In the Dark’. Springsteen’s is obviously great, but I’m thinking of the Downtown Boys’ cover which is much closer to where WicDiv is coming from.

I choke up at all this scene. Been a long way to get here, Laura. Onwards.

The trade collection for Mothering Invention is out in October. We have two Specials before next arc, WicDiv: 1373 (out at the end of September) and WicDiv: The Funnies (out in November.)

We’re then back in December, where we begin our final arc.

It’s called – “Okay”. Including the quotation marks. Yes, we’re going out on another Bowie reference.

Thanks for reading.